Okay guys, divorce was granted and here I am...all alone, starting in this brand new world that I have never experienced. You see, if you remember I have been with Shawn since I was 15, he never once took me on a date and I never experienced any of the "normal" things of growing up dating and exploring the world. We move into our new house in October 2011 and it's BEAUTIFUL! The kids are finally adjusting to life with just mommy and never seeing daddy and I have fallen into the role of single parent quite nicely. One thing I didn't mention is that not only do I work full time in marketing but I also go to school full time online, teach Zumba fitness classes 2 nights a week, play adult coed softball, both my children play t-ball, and now my son just started basketball...I know, crazy right?!?! I have a crazy, busy, stressful, happy, fun, non stop life and I love it! Ok Ok, back to the story. The house is great and we were getting ready for our 1st holiday as a family of 3...Halloween!!! I wanted to make sure everything stayed as normal as possible for them; costumes, candy, and fun..so X was an escaped convict and J was an 80's bride :) did I mention I love my babies! We trick or treated and had a great time..not once did they mention missing daddy or act sad...SUCCESS! Moving on, Sometime after the divorce was final I crossed pathes with Jack again!! We got together and starting dating...now some people would look at that and think wow, so soon..but I am grateful that he was there in my time of need to comfort me and show me that not all men were the same as Shawn and he more then anything was a friend when I needed one most! Sadly I must report that Jack and I didn't work out, not because he didn't want to be together but because we were at different points in life and didn't want to pressure either of us to settle for something we didn't want or weren't ready for. Jack and I are still, to this day great friends! After Jack and I split up I was pretty down and out..until Jerry came along. Jerry is kind, considerate, sweet, single, handsome, never been married, neve had kids, has his own place, vehicle, and steady job!! PERFECT!!! Jerry and I started talkin on the phone around mid-september and are still together today! Moving forward from Halloween comes Thanksgiving! This was gonna be the toughest holiday yet as it's meant to be with family and this will be the 1st year for the kids without their father and also other changes were coming...we were going to be meeting Jerry's family! The day came and we were dressed in our best ready to go eat...and again..no mention of their sad or a hint of sadness!! SUCCESS!! Now you may ask...where was their dad during this time? well the answer put simply is...he had better things to do..I guess! It's crazy to me how a dad can be in his kids lives 5 years everyday, being there and then all the sudden he forgets he's a father...I dunno how he sleeps at night! Christmas was finally approaching and I made sure that I had just as many presents for the kids as they have gotten in years previous..I didn't feel it was fair for them to have less of a Christmas because mommy and daddy split up! Christmas morning and and HOLY COW, santa brought tons of stuff :) they were excited and happy and NO MENTION OF DADDY! Now, I will say..they did see Shawn before Christmas but he didn't get them any presents and only spent 1 hour and 45 mintues with them! After Christmas Jerry and I decided to take the kids on a trip..we went to Branson, MO and if you have never been I highly recommend it! We stayed at the Welk Resort with an indoor water slide and pool then spent the evening at the Dixie Stampede having dinner and watching a show...the kids have a fabolous time and I think it's something they will never forget! :) So far this new life of mine has turned out pretty great...I have a great couple of kids, a great family that helps and supports me when I need it, a great new guy in my life that has brought lots of love and laughter, and great friends who hold my hand and tell me the truth about how things really are! I am pretty much in love with life right now!
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